N0t all questi0ns need an answer and n0t all answers will answer a questi0n…N0t kn0win’ what d’ future has in st0re f0r me is an uneasy feelin’ afterall. Imaginin’ I hv turned 16(23) with n0thin’ in mind what sh0uld or should I n0t do. Buck up Sarah. Bein’ me, it’s kinda hard f0r me t0 step 0utta my c0mfort z0ne. But why? I dunn0. Right n0w, I just wish f0r plenty 0f answers and guidance….
Everyday,I sat there and prayed f0r the best ch0ice. And so, HE sh0wed me that this is it. HE said it’s time t0 let g0 and regain my happiness.All the years I tried my best,n0t givin’ up and puttin’ up with l0tsa t0rments.I 0nly cared abt his happiness till I f0rg0t h0w t0 be happy myself.Alhamdulillah, I g0t my f00ting firm 0n the gr0und n0w. 
… I didn’t kn0w where I went wr0ng. Maybe I wasn’t a g00d gf afterall. But I did all tt I c0uld.The best tt I c0uld. S0rry that wasnt en0ugh f0r u.
Why did I hv t0 hv tt kinda dream? Sumthn tt will haunt me d’ rest 0f my life. It has been buggin’ me. Is it tryin’ to tell me sumthn 0r just paintin’ c0l0urs in my subconscious state? Can I turn back d’ cl0ck n make things right? Can I? S0me tried t0 pull me 0ut 0f the h0t water but I kept l0sing grip….
If it’s my fault tt things happened this way, I’d grab d’ tiniest chance t0 m0uld it d’ right shape 0nce again….
Argh!…I’m missing somebody horribly!! …Help!!!!
05/07/2002 - 05/07/2006
Finally it was the day which he & I were l00kin’ 4ward t0…
It has been 1434 days……34416 h0urs……2,064,960 minutes……123,897,600 sec0nds that we’ve been g0in thru d’ ups & d0wns, laugh & cry t0gether…..
Well…he realli went f0r a sh0ppin’ spree 0n 0ur anniversary. Hmphzz!….practically I was d’ "PA".We were realli mabuk, t0 b exact, he was d’ 0ne who was mabuk…t00 many ch0ices..Nyeahahahahazzz….and then we were hungry but decided t0 finish up 0ur sh0ppin’ first b4 we sit fer dinner.
But…al0ng d’ way, s0methin’ sp0ilt 0ur day…Haizz…
S0meb0dy… frm my past,s0meb0dy I didn’t and dun wanna c0ntact anym0re..s0meb0dy.. just a s0meb0dy frm my past, called…using an unfamiliar number….
I answered…..d’ name, v0ice.
I hung up.
I c0uld see d’ change in his face..I tried t0 h0ld him as tightly as p0ssible…I didn’t want him t0 think abt anythin’ else except d’ anniversary…
I am t0tally very very very very s0rry SweetHeart….d’ call, it sp0ilt d’ day…Cheer up k Hunz…
Happy 4th Anniversary t0 ya!
I ign0red cuz I dun wanna hurt U…
I left cuz u’re t00 g00d…
I rejected cuz U deserve s0me0ne much better…
I cried cuz………
N0thin can describe h0w shagged I am…urgh..!Lucky he was there to st0p me before I’m dead … 
2200-0600: w0rk
0600-0800: nap
0800: get ready t0 g0 t0 w0rk…again…
1700: yay!g0in h0me !
2300:start w0rk….again….
nyeahahahahaa…..
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T0ld ya s0…n0b0dy will eva understand the situati0n I’m in..I’m meant 2 b hurt..d0 n0t tell me tt u WILL b by my side n0 matter wat…Nvr Eva! d0 n0t feed me with empty pr0mises…I’m very vulnerable t0 tt…kept fallin’ f0r it…
I’ve cried enuf…y’re ur here t0 drain m0re tears 0ut 0f me??!!
St0p hurtin me..!
St0p hurtin me…pls!
U seem kinda d0wncast, U seem crestfallen…I been l0ngin’ fer ya t0 be happy but u ended up muddled.Will u tell me wat I did wr0ng 0r wat’s g0in’ 0n in ur head?Will u?Have I hurt u tt bad?
Keep smilin’ & at the same time explain t0 me why…
Yea, I kn0w..been ages since I submitted an entry..was packed with stuff and all alth0u aint w0rkin..teehee…
0k,tis 0ne t00k me a l0t 0f guts..alth0u been a yr since I left p0ly, it still dwells in ma head.
Peepz 0ut thr!bcuz 0f 0ne creature, I dun believe thr eva exist d’ term bestfren & 2 make it w0rse, it’s hard 2 trust even ur cl0sest frens…
Hyp0crites,Backstabbers-T0 HELL WITH THEM!! 0r in tis case HER!
N0w tt i’ve fixed d’ puzzle, I’ve figured 0ut y my p0ly mates wh0 nv knew me gv me d’ c0ld sh0ulder.
It’s simply cuz 0f a r0tten m0uth wh0 spread very unkind remarks abt me which isnt true.
I shlda kn0wn betta tt kinda creature d0 r0am d’ earth…Well, can say I was naive…
C0ngrats t0 tt creature n h0pefully d0 get a m0re w0rthwhile j0b next time. d0 n0t harm th0se wh0 doesnt even lay a finger 0n u…
Just wanna put sumthin acr0ss…d0 n0t trust s0me0ne easily…they might b d’ 1 stickin’ th0se knives 0n ur back…
Rem tt I’m nv here 2 hurt u… Angry.Disapp0inted.Yes,I kn0w. I wun b sh0cked if u hv murderous th0ughts… Insya’allah things will b in place asap…
I m n0t here t0 hurt u…Never ever ever ever ever….
